BoBo’s Blog-O-Rama

Why do people kill themselves? Is life really that unbearable? I mean think about it. It’s your own fault if life sucks that bad. Everyone has the power to change their lives for the better. You just have to give it time and try your best. If you sit around and do nothing, nothing will happen. You can’t loose sight of the future.

This post is basically regarding a 19 year old former schoolmate of mine named Adam who shot himself last Saturday night. Information is sketchy at this point as the paper said nothing except that he had died in his home. But I know his family and most of his friends so I know what happened. I’m pretty sure he shot himself in the head cause it is a closed casket funeral.

I know this is one of my rare serious moments, but I’m just trying to understand why someone would kill themself. This person didn’t graduate highschool, and was working at a bail bond place in CR. His parents never were married and his father never did claim him. He has been living with his grandparents for as long as I can remember. Not the most glorious life, but it wasn’t horrible.

He had lots of friends and was a pretty funny guy. He did alot of sports stuff and hunted quite abit. He also loved his motorcycle, even though he never got his liscence as far as I know. I never really knew him well (he was a grade below me in school) but he seemed to be happy. Maby that’s part of the problem. He repressed his anger. But we will never know.

I think the thing that put him over the edge, was a drunk driving charge that he got recently. Being underage, I can’t imagine it was very good. He was set to loose his job and having no highschool education, he probably assumed that his life was over.

Now, I’m not looking for any sympathy or anything cause I barely knew the kid. The point of this article is to try to get people to realize that it ain’t that bad. Sure, you are dead, and no more problems and shit. But look at all the heartbreak and suffering you put on your family and friends that care about you. Somewhere down the line, someone will feel like it was their fault. From what I hear, his grandparents and his girlfriend are taking it pretty hard.

So if you ever think about killing yourself, just think about it. It’s not worth it. If you try hard enough, you can accomplish anything you want. Look at me. I don’t have that much to live for. But every day I wake up and go through the paces just like everyone else. Cause I know with a little hard work and some luck, I’ll find happyness. Happyness isn’t necessarily money, or friends, or even family, or nice things. Happyness is different for everyone. For me it’s a great group of friends and I don’t plan on losing any of them any time soon.

So on that note, have a nice day:)

BoBo